Motherhood brings a whole new meaning to joy. The joy you get when you see your baby's face for the first time is something you can never describe. The joy and love as your child grows and thrives is wonderful, and nothing can compare! What you don't realize when you day dream about becoming a mom is that it is one of the hardest things on this earth. For me, there have been days of joy, doubt, contentment, anxiety, feeling inadequate, feeling like I got it all together, exhaustion, etc. It was when I just recently took a good look at myself and realized that something was missing, joy. I have been a born again Christian since I was 14, and have never stopped loving Jesus since, but I was so drained from life, and I wasn't going back to him be refilled. The joy of the Lord is my strength, right? There have been day where I've repeated these words over and over. There have been days where I have cried out to Jesus for this so called joy that people say believers are supp...